Tuesday, June 20, 2006

thoughts before i leave...

I'm sitting here waiting for my clothes to finish and for my CDs to finish loading onto my computer and figured that I should use my time wisely. I've been meaning to write the last few days. I've had a lot of things on my mind. One is the fact that this would have been my 4-year anniversary this week. And to top it all off, I'm going to be in the exact same places on the same days that I was when everything happened 4 years ago. Everything was centered around Erica's wedding, which is the same place that Emileigh is getting married this weekend. I'm trying not to get sad and all, but it slips in every now and then. I think most of all, it's just made me feel lonely and long for a real relationship. It's made me think of what I am actually looking for in a relationship. And so, I've started a list. I'm looking for someone who:

  • Is a strong Christian

  • Live in the same city (seriously, this is really a big one right now)

  • Has a heart for ministry

  • Loves and wants to have kids

  • Loves music (bonus points if he can play music, but I'll settle for loving it!)

  • Can put up with my quirkiness (well, I AM quirky!)

  • Doesn't mind if I hang out with the girls every once in a while

  • Is confident in his faith and in being the spiritual head of the relationship

  • Is attractive (sorry...I'm not going to lie - I want a cute boy! My idea of cute is pretty widespread, though)

  • Wants to continue growing in his faith (in other words, knows that he doesn't know everything)

  • Loves me for me

  • That's not a lot to ask for, is it? I don't think so. I know that he's out there somewhere. Hopefully, he'll show up in Lakeland soon since this is where I am! (see 2nd "requirement". HAHA!!)

    But that will not be the case tomorrow. Tomorrow (or early Thursday morning) I will be heading off on a roadtrip. I'm spending the night Thursday in Nashville with my friend Brenda, who I haven't seen in pretty much FOREVER! Friday, I'll be up in Waukesha, WI for Emileigh's bachelorette party. Saturday is the wedding. Sunday I'll hang out there in the morning and then head down to Greenville to stay with Stacey and Michael. I'm spending all day Monday and Tuesday morning in Greenville and then heading back down to Nashville Tuesday night. Then it's back home to Lakeland on Wednesday, hopefully in time for our group on Wednesday night! (We're reading Don Miller's "Searching For God Knows What" and I don't want to miss it!!!) So, hopefully I will be updating on the way as long as I can find Free WiFi. What? I'm a WiFi whore and I know it. Ok, so that's all that I'm going to post tonight. I'll save some for the rest of the week. Good night all.

    Grace and Peace...

    Sunday, June 4, 2006

    music-filled week

    So, this is probably one of the best music weeks I've had in a LONG time. Not only did I finally receive my copy of Andy Osenga's "The Morning", but I also ordered and received Jill Phillip's new album "Nobody's Got It All Together" and the only other of Jill's albums that I didn't have, "God & Money". (I'm still not sure why I didn't have "God & Money", but I didn't) And as if that wasn't enough, Mr. Andy Peterson was playing a show this weekend just an hour away! This meant that I finally got my copy of Appendix A and I got to see and talk to Andy and Ben Shive! All in all it was definitely a "Square Peg" kind of week!

    This week I also helped Karis get ready for her photography show at Mitchell's. That was a lot of fun and hard work and though it felt like it was never going to actually reach a point of completion, it finally did. Other than that it's been a pretty boring week. Nothing to report really. As I told Lisa F. today on the phone, I think I actually had a negative drama week, which I guess is ok. Sometimes I kinda wish that I'd at least have a little drama. Not a lot, though. I don't want to be a drama mama. Just enough to feel interesting for a few minutes. (and Rachel, if you're reading this, I'm not saying that I want to be the "it girl", just a little less boring.) So, anyway...that's been my week. Here's to hoping that this week goes well. I really need to find us a place to live. I've got a few leads, but nothing set in stone. I need the set in stone part. It would also be fabulous if someone called and said, "Hey, we want to give you a nannying job and pay you lots of money!" Yeah, I'd be ok with that. Ok, now that I've started to turn sarcastic, I believe it's time to go.

    Grace & Peace!