Thursday, April 6, 2006

why I wish I were a man...

There are some times that I wish that I was a guy. This is one of those times. Let me tell you why. If I were I guy, I wouldn't hesitate to act on my urge to go for a walk at night and lay out somewhere and look at the stars. I love looking at the stars. As I finished reading "Through Painted Deserts" this afternoon at Mitchell's, I couldn't help but wish that I was doing the same thing that Don and Paul did. Don talks a lot about the stars. I don't know...maybe it's a bit too much for me to drive around in a van with only the things that I have with me, but it's something to think about. Could I handle that? They experienced such beauty in God's creation and had His grace extended to them so many times through willing servants. If you haven't read this book, I highly recommend it. I'll even lend it to you after I get it back from Karis, who has already asked for it. So, there it is: why I wish I was a man. You can go look at the stars without fear of being assaulted or abducted.

Monday, April 3, 2006

Reality sucks

Why can't I do the thing that I need to do? I've talked about it with other people and I know that I need to, but I still haven't done it. I am such a tool. No, seriously. I am. The half a dozen people who know what I'm talking about could probably chime in right here and agree. So, here I sit, still awake, still not doing it. I've sat and stared for what seems like forever and still didn't do it. I'm only prolonging the inevitable. Yes, it's not going to feel good. I need to get over that part. Of course, writing about it solves nothing, but it at least gets it out of my head for a few minutes. I just want it to all go away. But I can't do that. Things don't work that way. As the Walgreens' commercials say, "We don't live in Perfect," so I guess I need to live in reality. Reality sucks.

A Happy Little List

I'm going to take a cue from Mr. Andy Osenga on this one:

Things that have made me smile recently:
(in no particular order)

1. New friends
2. The little boy who walked up to me at work (at Hallmark) and gave me a hug before he walked out with his family
3. Playing my guitar
4. Doing cartwheels in Munn Park
5. Getting to use a sweet camera (thanks Omar and Lisa!)
6. Hearing my guitar played by someone who can REALLY play it (Omar!)
7. Coffee
8. Great local music
9. "Spastic Butterfly"
10. Photo booth pictures
11. Worshiping at my new church
12. "Racetrack" and "7-11" runs
13. Alison's family coming to visit
14. Talking about forming a band ;-)
15. Long talks at Starbucks
16. Finding common musical interests (obscure ones at that!) with new friends
17. Making mix CDs for friends (let me know if you'd like one too! They're fully personalized!)
18. Don Miller's "Through Painted Deserts"
19. Beautiful pictures (Karis!)
20. Driving around Lake Hollingsworth and Lake Morton with the windows down, sunroof open, and the music really loud
21. Listening ears
22. Quoting Gilmore Girls...constantly
23. Pie
24. New music by fun people
25. Erica!
26. Dancing around the apartment to "Born To Fly"