doubting thomas

I love this song. I've been listening to it a lot lately. Yes, I'm doing the "one-song-on-repeat" thing again. It's from Nickel Creek's album "Why Should The Fire Die", which is absolutely fabulous! If you don't have it, you should get it.

what will be left when i've drawn my last breath
besides the folks i've met and the folks who know me?
will i discover a soul-saving love
or just the dirt above and below me?

i'm a doubting thomas
i took a promise
but i do not feel safe
...oh me of little faith.

sometimes i pray for a slap in the face
then i beg to be spared 'cause i'm a coward
if there's a master of death,
i bet he's holding his breath
as i show the blind and tell the deaf about his power

i'm a doubting thomas
i can't keep my promises
'cause i don't know what's safe
...oh me of little faith.

can i be used to help others find truth
when i'm scared i'll find proof that it's a lie?
can i be lead down the trail dropping bread crumbs
to prove i'm not ready to die?

please give me time to decipher the signs
please forgive me for time that i've wasted

i'm a doubting thomas
i'll take your promise
though i know nothing's safe
...oh me of little faith.

There are just so many things that are so true in here. In the sermon last week, the pastor talked about how if we were doing good, but not in the name of Jesus, we were essentially helping the cause of the Enemy. He said that Satan is not "pro-Satan", but rather "anti-Christ". He'll do anything to keep us from bringing our focus back to Christ. I love the line "if there's a master of death i bet he's holding his breath as i show the blind and tell the deaf about his power". I think that's what got me to put it on repeat in the first place and now I'm just in love with the song. Just thought I'd share. I'm off to get ready for work now. Have a beautiful day!