a generation gone...

I made it to the hospital this morning at about 8:15 or so. My grandmother wasn't responsive except for the rise and fall of her blood pressure. When the chaplain came in to pray with her and read the 23rd Psalm, her blood pressure shot up. It's amazing what our bodies can do. They took her breathing tube out around 10:00 because that is what she had wanted. They wouldn't have put one in, in the first place, had they known she had a DNR. Or at least that's what I understood. So, my mom, my aunt Donna, my aunt Sunshine, pastor Aaron, and 2 family friends stood there with her and prayed with her. My mom and I sang to her for a bit. "Soon and Very Soon" seemed like the appropriate song. At 11:00, she finally let go and went to be at home and at rest. I'm sad, but I'm not at the same time. She is out of pain. She is experiencing the one thing that we all long for. I listened to Andrew Peterson's "The Far Country" on the way to the hospital this morning and some of David Crowder's "A Collision" and "B Collision" as well. All of those speak of our home so poignantly. It helps to have that.

my grandmother...

I don't really know what to write at this point, but I feel like I need to write. My mom called me this evening and I missed her call. After an hour of trying to reach her, I finally got ahold of her on my aunt's cell phone. They were at the hospital with my grandmother. She had a heart attack and had fallen and hit her head. She was not doing well. They weren't sure how much longer she'd be able to hold on. That was at 8:30. It's 11:00 now and I haven't heard anything more from my mom. I know that she lived a long and full life. It's been close to 15 years since her husband, my granddaddy passed away and I know that she's ready to be with him and ready to be with the Lord. It's still hard. She is the last grandparent that I have. It's been just over a month since my grandpa on my dad's side passed away. So, that's where I am right now. Not really sure what I'm feeling, what I'm doing. I'll write more when I know more.

the lark ascending...

It's Friday. I can't tell you how excited I am that it's Friday. So, I'm sitting at my desk, listening to the MusicMatch "Classical Mix" radio station (which I love, by the way) and this one piece comes on and I recognize it and I keep listening. Then, all of a sudden, I realize that it isn't sounding like it is sounding in my head. That's when I realized what piece it was. It was "The Lark Ascending", by Vaughn Williams and here I was waiting for the drums to come in, thinking that it was "Be Lifted" from David Crowder* Band's B Collision, which is also on my computer here at work! So, yeah, that made my morning. It's such a beautiful piece! And to top it off, Anne Akiko Myers (violinist) is going to be performing it with the Florida Orchestra in Tampa on Memorial Day Weekend. I really want to go! Good times, indeed. Happy Friday!

don't you think daisies are the friendliest flower?

Sometimes I am such a girl. Just thought I'd throw that out there. I'm watching "You've Got Mail" right now. I love this movie. I have watched it so many times. Sometimes I think I've probably watched it too many times. Who knows. So, yeah. I probably shouldn't watch so many girly movies, but I do. They tend to mess with your mind. But let's face it. My mind is pretty messed with at this point already, so I guess a few more movies won't do it too much harm. :)